Joos's journal

24-07-2026

Bijna niets

In de afgelopen periode wist ik niet meer hoe ik wilde schilderen
De oude manier paste niet meer en ik zocht naar: Hoe dan wel
Ik vond het nog steeds leuk om schilderspullen te kopen
en hoopte dat die me zouden inspireren
Een paar dagen geleden wilde ik een kaart schilderen voor een vriendin
maar ik wist niet hoe
Ik wist alleen dat ik loyaal wilde blijven aan wat er in me leeft
Heel rustig werd ik en schilderde een paar kleurtjes en nog een paar
en een paar streepjes goud
De kaart die ik schilderde was eenvoudig, tedere, en drukte uit wat ik voelde
Eigenlijk is het ook zo in mijn leven:
Ik luister naar wat er diep van binnen in me leeft
Soms geniet ik gewoon van een kopje koffie en een muziekje
of ’s avonds van een glaasje wijn op het terras
met de merels op het gras en de geur van bloemen
Het leven vraagt vaak om niet meer dan dit…
Bijna niets dus
En in dat niets vind ik alles

 

24-07-2026

Almost nothing

For quite a while I thought I had lost my way of painting
I bought beautiful materials over the years
Every purchase carried a quiet hope that one day I would find my way back
A few days ago I wanted to paint a card for a friend
but I didn't know how
I only knew that I wanted to stay loyal to what lives inside me
I became very calm and painted a few streaks of colors
and a few more
and a few dashes of gold
The card I painted was simple, tender
and expressed what I felt...
Actually, it's the same in my life:
I listen to what lives deep inside me
Sometimes I just enjoy a cup of coffee and some music
or in the evening a glass of wine on the terrace
With the blackbirds on the grass and the smell of flowers…
Life often asks for almost nothing
And in that almost nothing
I find everything

 

09-11-2025

She found the gold within

I made this painting in a group with the theme “Feral Spirit”.
The group was guided on the internet by Flora Aube.
For me, the process was, and is, primarily about letting go of my dependence on what’s outside of me.
Suddenly I saw the meaning of the painting: The gold is inside us.

 

14-10-2025

Living our truth

The most important question we can ask ourselves is "What do I want"
For me, the answer to that is: "I would like to live my truth"
As a result, I reconnect with who I am instead of descending into my thoughts about the consequences of aging.
"What do I want" is also the conclusion of my book "Wholeness Complete"
I want to live my truth is what I want.
Whatever that means.
Our will thus comes into accordance with the higher will, the Divine.
Sometimes I forget that.

 

28-07-2025

Balance

Sometimes I wonder why I write less often in the diary of this website.
It has to do with losing the feeling of contact with my readers, because I get so little response to my pieces.
In the statistics I can see how many people have visited my website every day and therefore I know that the website still has a function.
All over the world.
What would I like to write now?
I still enjoy reading the books I wrote.
I understand them better and better, in a more embodied way.
I especially like the personal parts, because they give my humanity a voice.
My creative side still wants to express herself.
This is now mainly done in painting.
Getting older is nice because my life is in balance with all the things I do.
In addition, there is plenty of space to enjoy the peace and quiet.
Thank you for visiting my website.
I am happy that I can still contribute in this way, in a world that is becoming increasingly turbulent.

 

02-04-2025

Going inward

 

During the month of March, 50 women formed a goup, led by Flora Aube, via the internet.
The theme was Wisom Woman Resilience.
We would explore through painting what it means to be an elder woman who has been through a lot during her life and is therefore wise and powerful.
For me this painting was the result.
It shows the stillness of my essence.

 

06-02-2025

Getting older

I feel that my life has gone into a deeper groove,
with as much surrender to what Is as possible.
I take note of what is happening in the world
and find my own answer to it.
Grateful for everything I still can do,
I enjoy the little things.
Still trying to contribute
without forgetting myself.
I am deeply moved about loved ones who have already left life on earth behind.

Painting and expressing earthly femininity gives fulfillment.
I want to express the beauty of soft round shapes and deep valleys.
The feminine voice wants to be heard,
the feminine landscape explored,
as a counterweight to the tyranny that’s also here.

That's how my life unfolds...

 

29-12-2024

Desire

When my husband got ill, I knew it was important for him to know that I was with him and that I would not abandon him.
Now that he is no longer here, I still experience my desire for intimacy and companionship.
If I’m not careful, it feels like a great loss, like being torn.
Today I decide to turn that feeling around.
I put a hand on my heart and let myself know that I feel myself, that I am close to me and enjoy myself.
I see you, I feel you, I am with you.

 

23-12-2024

Inside the cave

Perhaps the greatest power we have at our disposal
is intention.
We can embody her
every time a bit more
by knowing what we want
and sensing how it feels
when we live these desires.
This will bring what we yearn for
a little closer.

For me always
the higher values
want to express themsellves.
That’s just the way it is.

Intimacy
Companionship
Fulfillment
Peace
Freedom

May the atmosphere
of this painting inside a cave
give us the space
to awaken our deepest desires
and may we live the fulfillment of them.

May peace on earth
come closer.

 

03-12-2024

The angels are rejoicing