Joos's journal

04-08-2011

Our true self

I love silence; I always return to her.
My mind is quiet and most of the time I have few appointments in my agenda.
Yet something in me remains restless.
Time and again I need to search for a new way to cope with this.
A few days ago I read that in earlier times a control has been placed around our consciousness, in order to prevent for true wisdom to come to the light.
I do recognize this. Often I become afraid then.
Every instant my mind tends to enter into an old, negative groove, I remind myself of a quality I find important.
This intention gives me a focus. It is a type of searching light to find my direction, in order to stay true to my true self.
Our true self consists of all aspects of love.
The focus amplifies our energetic aim.
In this manner we can magnetize and intensify anything we choose from the universe and feel this in our direct experience.
Above all, let us not forget to open to the new.
Ever again.

 

09-07-2011

Whole, unique, and feminine

I am whole, unique, and feminine.
When I remember this, my inside stops reacting to all kinds of things.
When I remember this, my inner self feels recognized, by myself.
‘I am whole’ signifies that I am conscious of the fact that I create my own reactions. No one outside of me does that to me.
‘I am unique’ means that I know that there is no one like me, and that it is important for all of us to bring our own individuality into this world. It means that we are totally different from one another and dare to be so.
And ‘feminine’ makes everything soft, gentle, and full of surrender.
My body is a sacred instrument to experience all of this.

 

23-06-2011

Computer

It is easier for me now to understand why I love my computer.
It enables me to write, and to make contact with people all over the world.
Also can I read how the consciousness of others is developing and I can check this with my own feelings.
The big step computers are now making is the move from the private computer towards cloud computing, where the computer functions more as a sender/receiver than as a database for information.
This change runs parallel to the growth of my own spirit.
I trust ever more my ability to tune in to all kinds of transmitters around me and inside me.
Even death has become less threatening through this.
Because the trust in the ‘higher dimensions’, precisely this fine-tuning, will help to cross over seamlessly.

 

16-06-2011

Change

I am preparing a booklet from the texts in the diary of this website.
It is interesting to note how often I have written about solstices, lunar eclipses, solar eclipses, powerful energies, the old that has gone and the new that is not so clear yet.
Maybe that is what will remain and for which we are preparing: Handling change and opening for the new that is arriving.
Letting go of our fear and opening for the love for what Is instead…

 

14-06-2011

Full moon

Sometimes I still feel a vague fear for what’s to come.
This concern is based on my wish to keep everything the way it is.
I know that this curtails my freedom, constricts my life, and shuts out the exuberance and the passion of who I truly am.
When I release my thoughts I do live in my heart, in the present.
Here I find the trust of being able to handle any situation that arises, because, if I do not lock myself out by giving in to fear, who I am will live on in the truth of what happens.
I have the feeling that all of us are facing this at this moment .
We are being prepared, so to speak, to trust our ability to cope with situations.
That is how we become the captains of our ship, no matter whether the sea is calm or turbulent.
In this manner we open for the many possibilities life offers us.
The full moon tomorrow, and the complete lunar eclipse on the same day, both have to do with this opening to the unknown.

  

13-06-2011

The moon

Last night the moon shone in her full glory through the open window.
Since she was nearing the horizon she seemed close by.
I looked at her from my bed and tried to get in touch.
The contact was about the moon not being able to see herself.
She can just be who she is.
She can radiate in view of the fact that she is a round sphere reflecting the light of the sun.
Within half an hour she had left my field of vision.
What is at the base of this eternal harmonic movement of the celestial bodies?
I sense the wonder of this and doze off again.

 

20-05-2011

Change

I am sitting outside, on my terrace.
Birds are singing their beautiful songs and in the birdhouse I hear young ones squeaking.
When I stay present in the Now nothing is wrong, on the contrary, I feel joyful, but at times a fear for change creeps in.
A fear that causes a stir in my deepest core.
And that leads me towards searching for ways to calm my fearful self.
At such moments I listen to ‘Times are Changing’ on Youtube, sung in 1973 in Carnegie Hall by Josephine Baker.
Her raw and passionate voice and the waltz rhythm of the melody help my heart and my body-self to find a state of enjoyment again.
Now, while sitting outside on my terrace, I know that the core of the earth herself is shaken.
I also am aware now that we are asked to let the earth know that we are conscious of that and that we are willing to assist her in her process of change.
My heart is calm now.

 

08-05-2011

Victory

The victory is not to be found in being able to cope with everything, or in being successful, the victory is to be found in the recognition that we have been faithful to our path, in search for the love, the truth, the compassion, irrespective of what was going on in our lives and in the world.
Many people who read this will recognize how they, time and again, have returned to this pursuit.
Not the results of our effort, but the road itself can be a victory march when we can let go of our attachment to the outcome.
We brighten up the darkness by holding just one candle in our hand.

 

03-05-2011

Conversation with the candle

I felt restless and irritated, so I emptied my workspace, lit a candle and asked the flame for advice.
I heard: Let the fire of your life be seen to the world.
‘How can I do that?’
By being brave and courageous.
‘What’s the difference between being brave and being courageous?’
Being brave is letting the wisdom within shine through you. This is more a matter of being than of acting.
Being courageous is having the fire to show your will.
‘That’s more difficult.’
Yes, there is a gap for you to do that.
‘How did I lose it?’
Through a misunderstanding about ‘Thy will be done’.
You have the feeling that there is a Will outside your will.
That is a fallacy, based on the parent-child interaction.
Your will is the Will of the Divine.
‘My will is the Will of the Divine.
There is nothing I would rather do than write this on my website.’
So, now you see that your will and the Divine Will are one.

21-04-2011

The door

When I ask myself what I want to write today I hear the following:
Love is omnipresent to accompany the process of rebirth we are passing through.
We may let go of the feelings of doubt in our head because with our intellect we will never be completely sure.
Our true knowing comes from our heart and all distractions from the outside or the inside of us may be left behind.
Feelings like fear, doubt, judgment, chaos are standing as gatekeepers at the entrance towards our true selves.
The door is open and all that is being asked of us is to walk through with ease and to open ourselves for the unknown.
The time for such a process is always in the Now.